It’s been two weeks since I began this relationship and I’ve already had two breakdowns. I didn’t even cry this much at my grandfather’s funeral seriously. But it’s not because of him it’s because of other people. (well the first breakdown was because of him but that was how we got started and it was just a whole big mess I can’t get into but he apologized I apologized end of story) This time it’s because of my cousins. I makeone mistake and all hell breaks loose and suddenly I’m not a trustworthy friend I’m not loyal just because I try to protect my boyfriend I’m the villain. I’m sorry if my priorities seem to be changing and that I’m human and prone to mistakes. I’m sorry if you feel disillusioned and disappointed but shit happens in life and I feel like I shouldn’t be humiliated because I fucked up. Yeah maybe I shouldn’t have done what I did but it happened and it’s over with. My cousins would know all of this if they would bother meeting me or answering my texts ignoring me doesn’t fix the problem and I’m trying so hard not to loose my patience and just be like fuck it because I care about them so much but they’re acting like fucking judgemental assholes and i can’t stand it.

And you know what the funny thing is the one person they said would not be there for me in the end is the only one there for me now. They promised they would always be there for me but I guess it was a lie…